touched

touch me lightly

first nirvana thought, 

sublime terror, 

razor’s edge of madness 

“once you see it 

you’re done for kid” 

and he wasn’t wrong 

its paralysis promise

whispers in these ringing ears 

“you will believe in miracles” 

these screaming miracles 

like a whistling kettle 

this is just a consequence 

of crystal almond eyes

“you have to look” he said

“beyond every idea, to the Real” 

i finally did it 

but we’re not meant to see