firefly

When I was little I’d catch fireflies in a jar. Only one or two at a time. To my young mind these small creatures were living miracles.

They would always appear in the same spot in our backyard, near a small hill around the base of an old telephone pole. Catching them was easier than you might think. One simply had to wait for the little insect to signal with its glowing abdomen and scoop it up. Where I live now in suburbia I rarely see them in great enough numbers to do this, but when I was a child, the night air was full of them. 

I’d take my jar inside and inspect the bug under some light. What a strange creature lived there on the other side of my fingers and a few millimeters of glass.

Then I’d sit the jar next to my bed and go to sleep, but with one eye open to watch my little prisoner. Sometimes I’d see it glowing there, but never so brilliantly as outside.

In the morning I’d find the firefly lifeless on the bottom of the jar. I don’t think one ever made it through the night.  There’s probably a metaphor in that, if one cared to think a little more about it.

in the Fall

in the Fall

you fell 

like a majestic oak 

like Hadrian’s Sycamore

you were cut by indifference 

to your majesty. 

it’s not fair 

that fate refused to

spare me 

this awful day. 

but how can i complain 

when others feel 

more pain and 

loss? 

time will tell

time will tell 
a many-chaptered story
in which characters 
fade in and out 
flash like fiery sparks
on a dark summer night
and those with sight will
see
but me?
oh turner of pages
rememberer of tales
i grow old 
with whitened hair
wrapped against the cold
snow beating hard my
thin glass illumined by
a meagre flame
twice wrapped against 
a childhood shame
whispering not
divine names to
warm an aching heart
i have my own chapters
so old..
they can’t be told